I found this article and I found MYSELF.

For years, I have always thought there is something terribly wrong with me. Although I love to communicate, I found myself avoiding parties, loud places, loud people, noise of any kind and I kinda turn into very reserve and quiet whenever there's to much of a crowd. Not knowing what is it actually, I just say that maybe secretly am an anti-social.

The battles continues years after I finished my degree and into my relationships with my loved ones. I found myself sometimes "fake it to make it" to be all chitchatty and force myself to stay in conversations with people around me.

Dont get me wrong, I love talking, I love communicating and sharing. But I would say, I am most comfortable when I am alone or when I am in a small group of people I know. And truthfully, I dont do very well in gatherings or kenduris.

What makes it even harder is people's assumption and first impression about me, especially when the majority if people is extrovert, I have almost no choice but to adapt. Adapt turns into pleasing and finally it's like faking myself for other people's acceptance.

To me, today is a historical day for me. That I have finally found myself. And it's okay to be me :)


Definition: Contrary to what most people think, an introvert is not simply a person who is shy. In fact, being shy has little to do with being an introvert! Shyness has an element of apprehension, nervousness and anxiety, and while an introvert may also be shy, introversion itself is not shyness. Basically, an introvert is a person who is energized by being alone and whose energy is drained by being around other people.Introverts are more concerned with the inner world of the mind. They enjoy thinking, exploring their thoughts and feelings. They often avoid social situations because being around people drains their energy. This is true even if they have good social skills. After being with people for any length of time, such as at a party, they need time alone to "recharge."When introverts want to be alone, it is not, by itself, a sign of depression. It means that they either need to regain their energy from being around people or that they simply want the time to be with their own thoughts. Being with people, even people they like and are comfortable with, can prevent them from their desire to be quietly introspective.Being introspective, though, does not mean that an introvert never has conversations. However, those conversations are generally about ideas and concepts, not about what they consider the trivial matters of social small talk.Introverts make up about 60% of the gifted population but only about 25-40% of the general population.